7 posts tagged “life”

What do you do with the cards and letters you receive?  Do you keep them all, just keep the photos, throw them away? 
Inspired by jacolily.

I keep everything I have cards from my first birthday. I have letters that date back to 1984 when my sister lived in another province. I even have valentinea dn christmas gram from high school that my ex boyfriend sent me.

I find all those things means omethingin my lie so Ikeep them all right done notes taht my friends wote me in high school and jr.high that we use to send back and forth to each other. Tghey mena alot to me.

I have even started with my childern as well I keep all the cards they get from holidays and birthday invitations. Iam just like that. Plus it took alot of thoght for someone to send something to you so why not keep it. Its the same with flower I dry them and keep them in a box. Heck I keep everything LOL.

What's on your holiday wishlist?

I have a  few things on my wishlist this year

1. my new laptop(should be here soon fingers crossed)

2. a fuzzy robe to keep me warm at night time and when i get up in the morning

3.a martini shaker (lol) jsut the fact I alwqys wanted one and just never bought one

4. To have a bigger place (which won't happen until the new year but hey I can wish LOL)

5. a new digital camera

6 a new kitchen table since i haven't gotten it yet

Well tomorrow is Cole's funeral.

Iam not good at funeral's I always break down. Cole's mothre Nicky has requested we bring the little ones with us becasue they are Cole's friends and they should be ther eto say good bye even though they don't understand.

I wasn't goingot take Dyla well one hes ben sick all week and the other reason is because I didn't want Nicky to be really reminded even though I know she will be reminded ever day. I was just thinking of her feelings in all of this. But since she requested it I will be taking Dylan with me as well.

I guess they are doing something special afterwards they are going ot have a song playing and then the childern will have a balloons and set them all off together. The cermony is called the Celberation of Cole's Life.

Iam just glad we wil all be there to support Nivky tomorrow. I just wish there wa sso much more we could do for her right now.

They also have a donation box outside the church for anyone who purchased a gift for Cole for Christmas the gifts will go to other little boys and girls that need them.

Ok I need to end this Iam startingot tear up again

I promise my next blog will be on a happier note

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What are some ways you save money? 
Submitted by Pixiemom.  

Save money I don't think its in my vocabulary LOL.

But I need to learn how to becaeu Iam down to one income so it will behard but i sha;; ;earn. I hope.

My problem is I like to shop alot for my boys and for myself. But those days will be coming to an end.

Have you figured out what your (or your kids') Halloween costume will be this year?  What's it going to be?

Ok my kids are going as baby Dylan is going as a black spider

AJ is going to be a transformer

and Cody well he keeps changing his mind so we won't know until next Friday for sure

Iam not dressing up Ok i haven't decided yet LOL because Iam handing out the candy

Pitcures will be up after Halloween

I nedd to over come alot of things before I can move forward and be happy again. There are things I just cannot let go and it will be hard to do. But someday I will be happy with myself.

I need over come the fear of being alone

I need to over come the fact Iam not fat and ugly which will be hard because when I see myself I still see the person who weighed over 200lbs at one point in my life.This is the hardest thing to over come if youwere ever big at one point in your life you would understand.

I need to stop putting myself down alot. I know this will be hard becaue my whole life I always had someone tell me Iam stupid your you will never achieve that. I have proven people wrong in the pass and maybe someday I can prove to my self too.

I need to learn to drop things like the death of my father and the anger against my sisterf or giving up her daughter 33 years ago and still doesn't want contact with her. Also towards my mother for not helping my sister when she was pregant to help keep my niece 33 years ago.

I also need to stop taking things to heart. I know my boys love me even though they say they hate me I know deep down they don't mean it. It just hurts.

I just need to take things a step at a time and over come alot and someday I will be happy but as for ever getting married again I will not do that again. I can not do that to myself again.

What experience or moment in your life have you learned the most from? 
Submitted by AngieK. 

Iam experiencing at the moment htat being a single mother is very hard. I give high credit to any women who is going through this.

I have two good friends back in Nova Scotia who left their husbands and have two or one child and they are having the time of their life as aingle mother.

But Iam learning that they have it easy with family and friends around them. I have no one to help me but my ex.

I have friends to listn to me but not the same as going out for dinner or watching a movie or being able to cry on ones shoulder.

Iam learnig from day to day it is hard with a 7year old, 4 year old and a 5 month old baby.

But to be honest as much as i get fustrated and that i would never trade it in. i feel free and relax when my ex is not around.

I will come over the obsticle of my childern and they will grow from this. They just need to learn that mommy and daddy are not getting back together

But i have learned that seperation is not pretty when you have childern.

It's not easy and even though Iam over him to the level that we can be friends that it will still be hard on my boys.