6 posts tagged “friends”

There a days I wish we could pickour son's friends. I know they are stil young and friends wil come and go but sometimes there is that one friend that might jsut stick around through their whole life unfortunally we can not pick them for them. LOl.

Mind you there are days I wish we could.Austina nd COdy have a few friends inthe neighbourhood that go to a different school so they only play with them after school and on weekends. A few of them are a year older then Austin. But they 2 of them seem ok.

It's the ounger ones that are a year older then Cody that get on my nerves, One jsut walks on in with out knocking and he informs me htt his mother said its ok if he comes in to play without asking me and when Itell him no its not ok becaue Dylan is napping or Iam washing hte floors he says but my mom says its ok. grrr listen to what Iam saying PLEASE.Iam saying no. Also to top it off he was trying to choke my oldest son the other day too.

Then there is the other 2 that live only2 doors down from us and they are little brats LOL thats being nice LOL. They so far have broken 2 of my stepping stones int eh backyard and snapped one of my decortive ornaments out there too.

Austin also has his school friends as well that live across the road near the school one of them comes over alot and spends the night on the weekend. But Iam not sure if hes a good kid or not there are days he makes me wonder. Like he brought a bike her one day withno seat on it and 3 times the size of him so it makes me wonder if he stole it. Then they tell stories to Cody that they were being chased by a hobo. So in other words they wer ebugging someone. Also at the age of 8 I have seen him in the stores by himself with out his parents and having his younger brother with him. During the day his 10 year old sister watches him becaue his motehr sleeps during hte day becasue she works at night and his father is at work during the day, They do have a babysitter as well but I guess she isn't also around for the older kids mainly for the younges tone.

So I wish there was a lsit that has to be gone over and signed to pick yoiu childern kdis becaue at this age your not sure who will turn into good kids or bad kids. I jsut hope I have raised my childern well enough for them to know better and to do the right things an dnot be a follower or to be a bad leader either.

So I am wishing the bad kids wil go and the godo kids remain and theat my childern never get into trouble and alsways do the right thing.

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Well my birthdya was on Friday and I turned 34 years old. It was a nice birthday Friday night we did the home thing with we ordered food inand had cake and i got my gifts from everyone.

Saturday we went to Tony Roma's and then bowling for the evening too. That was funthe kids really enjoyed theieselves doing that.

Then yesterday I went to lunch with the moms and kids because3 of us had birthdays in May but most of them backe dout so it ended up being jus tme and Erika with Dlan and Kali or little ones. When we got to Boston Pizza they were all sitting ther they all lied to me and turned it intoa surprise lunch for me. The buggers. It was all Troy and Erika's plan. It was nic ei enjoyed it alot.

Then to finish it off for the weekend I went to my book club meeting so it was  a very busy weekend.

Friday night onMy Birthday

hmm my other pics wouldn't load i will try later

Robot Visions

Isaac Asimov

This is the book we are reading for June we are only reading one short story inthe book The Bicentannial Man .Then we are watching the movie with Robin Williams in it

Well the last few days have been really downers I guess. So to speak.  I never really realiazed how alone Iam until I want to do something and threes no one here to do it with.

I hate being alone. i hate when the weekends come and the boys are gone with their father. I so never wanted this. i wanted to have a happy marriage a happy life and no its all gone down hill. I hate feeling like this I really do I want to be happy I want to move on but for some stupid reason I cannot.

I try but its all a lie when I think I do. Iam fine until I talk to Troy or see him it fustrates me that he has friends here and people to hang out with. It makes me angry.

I hate how I am always stuck in the house or that I have to walk every where. He gets his friend to drive him or they go out places together.

I am jsut so fustrated. This whole week has been hard on me the phone never rang once and I had no ne to talk too until the weekend on the computer

I wish I had a life. But iam not outgoing or anything like that. I try to talk to people but Iam to shy to start talkingot people I don't know.

I asked some people I talk to on the computer to go for coffee but they tell methey are not interested I only aske dfor coffee nothing else what ever just happened to being friends.

All I know being single isn't fun and I never wanted this but oh well life goes and I wish some people would understand when I say Iam going to be alone the rest of my life I am going to be alone it doesn't pay to have your heart broken into a million pieces so not worth it.

I want to take a moment and to thank all my friends in vox land. You all take a momett in your busy lives to read and to leave comments to help me out.

I apperciate so much . You all have things going on to and you are all in my thoughts every day. I hope everything works out for everyone and that we are all here for each other.

You are all special to me

Thank You for being my friend

I love you all

Huggggs

Oh where to start today where to start.

I have been up since 5am this morning because I got a phone call from my friend in hystrics. I thought t wa my friend Kim because her mother s very ill and they don't expect her to live. But nope it's my friend Sarah who just moved back to Nova Scotia freaking out at me about her boyfriend (which I will not get into) but she said it was over and she feels hopeless and and not sure what to do and so on. They gave only been dating for a month but they knew each other 5 years ago. But she says she loves him.

But what he admitted to was wrong and gross(which I can not talka bout here unfortunally) So this might not make since but I need to somewhat vent.

Anyways I promised not to tell anyone but she had me so distraught I wasn't sure what to do so I called Troy and talked to him and told him because they are friends too.  So what did Troy do he emailed her and well firworks went from there she yeleld at me and told me I wasn't a good friend and she didn't want to talk to me anymore and so on.

So all day I have been crying kicking my ass for caring. I was so upset I had to talk to someone plus if I needed to go home andbe with herthat would be in Troy's department because he would of needed to take time off to be witht he boys and give me airfare too.

I really thought I needed to go down and kick some ass.

But no for caring for another person I know lost my hsband of 13 years and my best friend of 15 uears. I really am thinking I suck as a friend,wife and mother.

Life blows

Sarah and me in our good times

Once best friends will she ever forgive me for caring and protecting her. He says what he told her was a lie but really why lie about something like that is jsut wrong ifonly I could actually write what he said.Marty you will understand this but unfortunally no one else will.